Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, ah Shake It (Metro Station)

Well, turns out I spoke too soon with the "opps, I did it again" title.  I had another attack a little less than two hours ago that lasted an hour.  It was the first attack that my little brothers had seen.  I was so proud of them, they handled it so well.

I don't know why I keep having them over and over again; I keep trying to figure out what lesson it is I'm supposed to be learning from them.  Maybe I'm just supposed to know that I can withstand hard times.  This evening, my family went into town to run a few errands and I stayed home alone.  I really needed to go to the bathroom, but after trying to sit up on the couch and falling back down, I realized crawling was my best option.  I made it only three feet from the couch when I realized I was going to have an attack.  I had left my phone resting on the top of the back of the couch.  I tried so hard to crawl up the couch to reach it.  I almost thought I wouldn't be able to.  It's a testament to Heavenly Father's love for His children that I was able to reach it.  I called my sister - she always has her phone on her - and by the time she answered I was already convulsing so all she heard was me trying to gasp for air.  All I heard was, "Lauren?...Oh crap."  And then my phone went flying with my next convulsion.  There was reassurance in knowing that my family was coming.

There is such a great strength from those that love you.  What a wonderful gift a family is.  Family isn't just those related by blood, family is the support system we have filled with people who love us despite our weaknesses and shortcomings.  I could never have made it through any of this without the support of my unique and diverse family.  I gained a lot of siblings while I was in Hawaii, and I am so grateful for every member of my family.  So this is a shout out to every one who has touched my life.  Thank you for all you've done for me, and someday, I hope to help others the same way so many people have supported, cared for, prayed for, and loved me.  Your influence reaches further than you know.