I can't believe it's already been almost a year since my last entry! In May I went to an AMAZING treatment program at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota. They were the hands and the mouth pieces the Lord used to answer my own prayers and the many prayers offered on my behalf. My doctor there advised me to never again talk about my health to anyone. I've tried diligently to follow all of my doctor's orders, but to this one I say, "Screw it!"
I've come to realize that while people now treat me as a person and not a medical condition, I am no longer able to reach out to and encourage and inspire others without referencing my Great Trial. I can't sit back and keep my mouth shut anymore. God gave me this trial and all the wonderful lessons and experiences that came with it so that I can use them to help others, not to pretend it never happened.
So here I am, back and ready to go!
I'm amazed at how much strength the Lord can give me each and every day. I know without a doubt that as I turn to Him, He sends angels to uphold me up and ease my burdens. God is so very giving. While I am doing REMARKABLY better health-wise, there are still days and moments when I struggle. Life is a great balancing act.
There is one building I cut through each day on my way to campus from my apartment. I have to climb up a staircase to reach the level of campus, as the school sits on a hill. I push myself to always take the stairs, remembering all the times stairs weren't even an option for me On days when I am struggling, as I slowly trudge up the final stairs, a life-size brass statue of Christ greets me. On those days, I say to Him, "Help me Lord, I can't do this without You." I can feel His love and support fill me and lift me up. All things are made possible through our Savior. He did not Atone and die on the Cross for only our sins. No, He Atoned also for all of our trials, for all of our ailments. I know Jesus Christ gave His life to help me through this one. He gave His life to free me from the burdens I can no longer carry. He gave His life so that I can live again with Him in His Home above. I am never alone. Neither are you.
